i was doing so good
and i was so happy
…and then i weighed myself
fuck
i can’t think like this
my body doesn’t look different because of a number
i feel so shitty, guys
Me over the last 4 years, struggling with my eating disorder.
The weight fluctuation is actually crazy, it’s interesting to see. I can tell you at what point how much I was eating/working out/drinking etc.
I’m glad I no longer have a scale and I’m starting to really be happy with my body. Being happy and comfortable with myself is the first step for me to be content in my life. I’m tired of feeling like shit about food, my body, and the world around me. I’m tired of comparing myself to girls constantly and WISHING WISHING WISHING I was more like them. It’s all bullshit, don’t you see? And it’s such adolescent behavior… I’m turning 20 years old this year and I need to stop avoiding the fact that I’m an adult. THE FUTURE IS COMING WHETHER I LIKE IT OR NOT, and eating so little I can barely function is just not going to fly anymore.
I don’t mean to offend anyone young who follows me and suffers from an eating disorder (because it is suffering). Just know that at some point you’re going to have to get comfortable in your skin. At some point your happiness becomes more important than a number. And at that point, things will begin to get and feel better. Stay healthy, lovelies.
fitspo (by Wierzbitch)
I LOVE RUNNING WHILE WATCHING THIS
just finished my workout
aha, my hair colour runs when i sweat but that’s okay
definition of abs is starting to show!!!
i’m eating GOOD FOOD and trying to STAY ACTIVE and I don’t feel weak and helpless
i have all the power in the world to change my body
i no longer believe that restraining from food is STRENGTH
BEING STRONG means TAKING INITIATIVE and DOING SOMETHING about your INSECURITIES
not eating? that’s doing NOTHING
and I now view it as a WEAKNESS
I love how my ribs show slightly
and even though i hate my thighs, i like my butt a lot
my arms are big but i make up for it with a nice face (and pink hair soon!)
my tummy is a little flabby but i have nice tits
there’s always good and bad
